I am doing it, it is day 6, and if what Jos says is true, i might be over the worst. This morning it feels like it.
I am off to the fmmf, frog mountain music festival, first i didn't feel like going, but now i am excited. So we'll see it doesn't really matter, maybe i have a miserable day in the rain:) that's okay, i know i won't smoke, so it's good.
Yesterday something else happened, as i was going through my cravings quite badly, a man shows up :)
I loooove men :) well i do, but that's beside the point. More than anything i love an adventure, (that doesn't sound right either) I love something new, i dwell on things different, new and exciting.
A new path through the woods, a place where i never listened to the birds before, smelling the flowers, i love that.
Michael from new Mexico, was here for a couple of hours, and i thought of smoking only twice. Where as when i am with people i know and nevertheless dearly love, my mind will easily wander and you know where it goes.
When in a 'new' situation, i'll be totally absorbed.
I think it was Paul who suggested, something new, but somehow i couldn't think of anything. So is there a secret to it when it befalls on me (how do you say that?)
Is it more exciting when i do not premeditate it?
Yes for me that's true; falling in love out of the blue.
(By the way, i did not fall in love with this man, honestly, he is just very nice and helped me a lot without knowing it. Thanks Michael!)