Thank you Brian, Kara, Cicero and Fireweedmeadow (i forgot your name)
This really helps you know.
It kind of centres me, to sit here and listen to you and write about it.
IT is really hard now, my mind starts playing tricks on me, telling me stuff: like one is ok.... or tomorrow.... Not it is not ok and not even tomorrow.
I am making some tea (i give that a try instead of coffee that i did that yesterday.
And friends are good, I was in good company all morning, I will stay away from the smokers indeed.
This morning at 8 am i was at the raspberry patch, i found the motherload (shown here) when i was about to leave:)
I stepped outside for a bit here now, because the Ravens are making a commotion, i can't see what it is about. Well any distraction helps. They were just screaming 3 of them. I have no dogs or anything that really attracts Ravens, so they really only stop by to tell me something....
I am going to see if i can nap :) somewhere in the shadow, listen to the Ravens, they are still at it.
I feel i don't have much energy. Probably from trying to stay focused on non-smoking.
Next two days i am in town. That again is both good and not.
As i said, i am really a closet smoker, i never smoked during the day when in town.
Tell me again i can do it.