Hmmmm what was i going to say? Last night, nothing happened, really nothing gained or lost, but somehow it shattered me, it were just words that i read, promises made and not kept, promises of friendship, and it's not even that they are not kept, i know he still loves me in a certain way.
Just not in the way i would like it.
This week i had all sorts of beautiful insights.
I know that in a way i create my own life, i even know how it works. Well how lucky can i get? I have had many instances when wandering down the path, a thought arise and next thing i know it is a reality. I marvel, and come out of the woods in awe, standing on the mountain.
That's how he appeared, all sweet nothingness, and now nothing has gone:)
I realized this week that my happiness is still based on outcomes. fields of happiness interconnected with my past and future.
I am all for living in the moment, but i wonder now if that moment truly stands on its own. Maybe you out there knows all this, please enlighten me. because i am clueless again.
Okay this is it, i search for bliss coming truly from within. Because i do believe that is the essence, i know when i am there, grace flows over abundantly in all i see and do. I know, because i've been there.
i did stand on the mountain top, i stood in the greenest valley you can imagine, just underneath it's frozen peak, water flowing beneath my feet, the wind blowing powerfully. blessed blessed me. thanks