We all try our best

 We all do the best we can.  I am convinced of that and i have to remind myself of that when i see.... stupidity.

When i grew up you brought your own shopping bag, big leap forward, now these day here in town, one time use plastic groccery bags are banned. Many of the stores are selling us a sturdy groccery bag, the ones you can reuse, for us who forgot. I remember my friend Cristina saying these things are so bad! Now i see why. because now i am sure the groccery store is selling these sturdy bags, yes many people brng there own , many, but for it to make a difference in the amount of plastic that eventually ends up in the environment. i am sure that we need to do better.  Again i feel a bit deflated, as  it did not make an iota of difference. Like in the seventies when many were trying to not use batteries, we could not have imagined that batteries is now the future. to me that is still very weird. And the light bulb thing, another weird story. 

But please do not mind me encouraging you, that less is more. Don and i our power bill is still around 40 dollars, often we get a rebate for 50 dollars, because apparently power is so expensive. I can honestly tell you we live well  :) considering the circumstances. (the circumstance is that Don is needing care due to aging.)

Homecare came out today, and i went snowshoeing, while they were here. Did i say that i do find it oddly pleasant often this looking after my husband. And also when homecare comes and i shoot out of the door to go snowshoeing, i do find that 'weird'ly exhilirating. 

Supper is ready, toodeloo 

Our little bit does help

 And to me it is huge.

When i bring up the subject of environmentalism, everybody seems to be in on it in their own what they often call little way. Some seem to feel anxious   maybe for  not doing more or  amybe because  of the uselesness of it all and some spring into action right away turning off the lights.

But  to me our little contributions are huge when you put them together. I am not going to look up numbers and put them here for you. But if i turn off one light bulb, ( ha! I just did, with finally the sun coming up, i do not need light to type.)  You probably all heard the story but i think it still stand, if others do it too, than eventually one diesel power generator in whithorse  can be turned of an hour earlier...lets just say, if that hour is mulplied by all cities in Canada.  etc etc.

So i try, i try to make better choices, and no i do not feel shame or anxiety that i do not learn to type blind.

which most of you probably can do and do not even need an extra light when making a blog post.

I try to be aware , at times, not to the point where it becomes overwhelming. This morning Don and I on our morning walk, yes that works for me, It is as much work to get him ready for a walk a it is to get him in the car, so when we go for a walk for us there is just not the time of day to go for a drive anymore. win win right?

And i was asking  here for ideas what i do in the afternoon to meet my own needs. The sun is shining and when my polar swim buddy does not phone, i will set a snowshoe trail to a little spring, i feel for the remainder of the winter, i might have to dip into the spring... it is tiny, but maybe no smaller then a bath tub.

photos photos you ask, i know. Yes i am frugal, but mostly i do not like shopping, so my computer will first need  to totally fail  ( not just the uploading of photos) before i  go get a new (refurbished) one, and up to that day i will rather spend  my energy to keep it working.

Tropical

 I just read a funny facebook post from my closest neighbour. 

copy and paste: Stay warm folks! It was - 40°C today but it's getting warmer already, at -30°C. It's tropical

 I think we crazies here all love that joke.  It is always so true, after a cold spell, which did not last very long this time, when you poke your nose out of the door unaware that the temperature has rocketed up, I am like; wow, I can go out in a t-shirt. which then when trying that out is not true, but that is how it feels.

So yes Canada ( i don't know the rest of the world?) i think still has  lots of cold places, but not here. My brother in Southren Alberta has quite a spell of what i used to call Yukon weather; bright sunny, still days, stark blue skies. hmmmm not so much here this winter. I am not complaining though. And this last cold spell lasting so short, i do find that unusual, often in my experience the cold  would stick around a bit longer then the weather people predict. 

So yes lets look after this wonderful planet we have. You might know i do not like the term climate change.  I always feel there should be a term like; it is about time we start living wihtin our means!

I believe there is a sweet spot, where all is  more balanced,  that we live well, but without destroying the earth.  So before i started typing here i turned of several lights in the house. I just need one, and so does my husband. so two lights are on, the computer (obviously), the fridge and the electric hot water tank. I feel that already indicates I have more luxery then i truely need.

I try to always be doing well with less. But still i find it needs constant vigilance, and for me, this trying, maybe i do not perse get joy from it, but it certainly prides me, and  this kind of pride energizes me.

Lately I had a little setback in using fossil fuels. As Don is aging a support worker comes out once a week, driving around 150 km round trip to get to us. We are extremely grateful for their help. But i count it up on our footprint. Now  because my husabnd used to like driving, we do less of that. But it turns out i still feel a need to be out and about most days, and walking everyday just doesn't quite cut it for me, so i go swimming, yes that cold plunge, which now after the cold spell, open water  is going to be some 40 km from here.

I could do the snow dive ( right outside here) but that doesn't quite take me away from the house enough.

Any suggestions are welcome. 

What do you do? And  maybe first; do you have that need to be away from the house, that transport you faster then your own feet can?

Goodmorning 40 below!

 I always feel energized with the cold.  And this time in addition to the normal euphoria, i secretly think 2024 is trying to set the record straight on the warming up of the planet, 2023  was an exceptionally warm year, we'll see. It is a new moon, and it is being said, 'what comes with the moon goes with the moon.'

The first 10 days of January were, i will say, average. We had some beautifully cold days lately. beautifully in my book being around -20 C/-25C. I have some lovely walks those day, the snow cover still being such that i can tramp around in the woods. I am always slow to move onto my snowshoes or skis.

 Monday it was rather dark  and people were talking about this, the cloud cover yes, but in this instance the hoarfrost, make it quite dark. An interesting gloom, i have to say. In summer the forest can be black with the trees in full leave. I like winter because without leaves the fores is much lighter and much more open. Not so with the hoarfrost, Again quite beautiful but one looks into a wall of white, and no light gets through., hence the gloom.

And i got kind  of lost in a  slice of pizza  shaped piece of woods north of here. the wedge shape is made by trails, so not by the end of the forest. In the middle of this pizza  piece,(say 50 acres)  there is  a lovely ridge, where i did get to see a light spot in the clouds, which indicated the sun was trying. When i came  close to the point of the pizza slice, i though i take a short cut to , to reach the trail on the northside,  With the snow on the ground an on the branches, this bushwhacking is not the easiest, and with no sun to guide me, i felt i was walking in circles. Unlike Winnie  the Pooh i did not come upon my own tracks, but say half an hour in  just when i was going to make a real attempt to walk in a straight line, i came out by the  crust on the west

  I had taken the longest root possible to reach a trail.

Wednesday's walk was adorned with blue sky, so less of a risk to get lost. Beside all being glorious with the hoarfrost and all, I happen to flush out two grouse ( i made photos but whatever my computer might be on the blink it does not let me upload photos). I felt sorry for the grouse,  they had been hunkering down underneath the snow. I could see their track entering a little hole in the snow, a foot further now a bigger hole with wingmarkings on the snow, where they had flown out of.  I stayed very quiet because now they were sitting all fluffed up from the cold in near by trees. I was able to back out to not disturb them any further.

Blessed  beyond I feel for all the beauty.

I link it to my resolution to be kinder.

And i know my husband wants me, we will do another game of trinomino.

Life is good. and yes i will throw a log in the woodstove!

Peace on Earth

My reslution for this year is peace in my own life, let me at least not throw any proverbial bombs anymore.

As the new year is already over a week old, i have to admit, i already have thrown some bombs. 

And what i mean with that is  i will  often say things rather blunt. 

I finally, age 63, start seeing that really nobody truely likes that.

To change myself like that, i need awereness, otherwise it is out before i know it. Of course  a good start is to have at least some awereness when i throw such bomb.

It makes me wonder if the 'real' bomb throwers actually have much awereness. Probably not, right?

A few days ago i started off really good. You have to know my husband is aging quite rapidly, and more then ever he wants me to be by his side. Now there is a bit of a controlling aspect to this, which i have battled with for my whole marriage. No more battle! I had a plan to go walking with friends, leaving in the time slot when i normally have my morning walk with him. Instead of dropping it as bomb and having to battle . I brought it very gently,  and expressed understanding  for his feelings.  

I still cannot believe how easy that went, i was out of the door  before i knew it, all peace and harmony.

Now i also happen to have a bit of a problem with my vocals, so meeting up with my friends,  i said   i will not be talking as much as i ussually do. They were probably quite ok with that, because we tend to talk a lot. Sometimes we even throw in some silent meditation, say we walk 15 minutes without talking. That is hard for us. But this time i  just let them talk.

I have to say no awereness here on my side, when i am with people i hardly ever have awereness, I meditate every morning and that is what i work on to stay attentive to the moment, knowing, like for example now; my fingers are typing, that the clock is ticking, my mind says much more then i can type here. When i am with people no such thing, as awereness, i am just blabbering about. (hopefully often quite intelligently or at least entertaining)

 And sure enough after an hour into the walk i forget all about my talking less and my peace resolution,was totally not on my mind,  and  I actually became quite blunt, weirdly so.   As my throat did hurt i had some awereness that i was talking too much, but not enough realization to stop, and  twice in the next hour i realized i was quite rude, once i apologized  but then later did it again.

Peace to you All!

What was your moment of awereness today? Which is always worthy to be celebrated!

Happy New Year

  Ha my resolution! I want to try again, making a blogpost ever few days. Connecting with people in order to bring joy, meaning,whatever we desire (as a blogger here said)

Desire to make the world better maybe? For all to be in balance?

So this is how my morning started.  Listening to the radio; what comes with the new year is that on the radio they always seem to be somewhat positive. I loved  a conversation about:

Resolution practices!  

So she said; not a time for time out, but a time for time in. She said something like :When someone is hurt, who is hurt? what can the causer do to elevate that hurt. Healing Circles.

I will try to practice today, too often i still get mad at my spouse. I will let you know.

Something else i am going to do today is some simple art. I already made some glue this morning. (white flour and water, boiled to a paste). left over from christmas i saw a bunch of paper, beautiful pinks and orange and gold. I found the color scheme so striking, i  decided i will make something with it.

Also i have a date to go swimming, yes still in the river, now farther up stream, as the river is freezing.

What a blessed 2024 already. to feel inspiration like that.

How is your 2024 going? Anything, the good the bad, just what is.

As that is where we are. And that is a glorious thing.

Kusawa Lake. I did not build this structure, but some one did, what fun!

"my tree" at autumn equinox