Friday, June 26, 2009

wild roses



only briefly i go out of the house today
to walk among the roses
its fragrance
sweet and heavy
blown away by wind
i unable
to really catch it
like a sun ray
i cannot fold into my hand

this is my first day in a month
to be truly on my own
nothing needs to be done
so i cry
not so much
for my father who has died
or for my mother on her own
but more for me
for all and everything
that left me
standing

the music loud
till my head bursts open
i dance, i swirl
till i collapse
i scream
i scream
why did you let me go?
i wish i cried
hot tears
strings of my hair
sticking to my face
my hair
your hand
that ruffled it
don't you know?
i cannot live alone

or was it me?
abandoning myself
always wanting to be free
too eager
to live
to love
hmmmm....
all those
roses along my path


7 comments:

Matt, Kara, Hunter and Cavan said...

Here is a wonderful website just full of recipes for rose petals!

http://suzette.typepad.com/the_joy_of_soup/2003/05/rose_petal_reci.html

Sue said...

Beautiful post, Jozien

I wish i could say things as well as you can...

I'm at a loss for words, my wishes for you are bigger than just "feel better soon" or "I'm sorry for your loss" or "stop and smell the roses"

jozien said...

Thank you both!
And maybe i"ll just pick rose petals for the rest of my life, mmmm :)

Faith said...

{{{Jozien}}}
Beautiful words. You are gifted with your words. They reach right into my heart...

"all those
roses along my path"

let the tears come and cry with the rose petals.

love from Faith :)

christopher said...

Sweet one,

You already know, together or alone, illusions and realities, there is only breathing.

You were in Holland, now you are in Mendenhall.

There is only breathing.

xoxo

aria said...

{{Jozien}}
let the sun warm you
let the owl protect you
let the roses shine on you
let your tears free
let love flow
there is no fear
love, it's al there is

Anonymous said...

"WILD ROSES"
KLEURRIJK ALS JIJ
sweet and heavy
blown away by wind
ALS JIJ
to live
to love
hmmmm....
all those
roses along my path
ROZEN VOOR JOU
WILD ROSE IN THE COUNTRY

ME