ahhh i took that picture last night, i enhanced the color a bit, is that allowed or is that cheating?
I feel when i tell it's not really cheating. Or is cheating allowed? They are only my own rules.
So, i stopped smoking again today. I started again 6 weeks ago. Again not much, but too much
according to my own idea of what is acceptable or not.
In my marriage it came to a confrontation, different then all the others before, and this morning we are starting over, we are on the same side of the fence, for today. I stopped smoking, he stopped drinking.
I will respond to him from my heart
and not some kind of avoiding answer, because i fear his madness and really my answers/reactions have underlying deviousness because i feel i don't know how to protect myself from his negativity and use revenge in the way i respond slyly.
something like that.
And he will be nicer, not criticizing every move i make.
Ahhhh that is a lot to ask for one day, so beside that i will just vegetate a bit, that works best for me, when trying to change, focus on that and only that. Here the blogging is good; i love it, it's non threatening and cost me little effort and
most of all! you will be behind me! supporting me!