too much

I am loving it :)
Yesterday was such an incredible day. I could write a book. And it's happiness will radiate for long time to come.
And the sun is shining outside too. It is absolutely glorious.

So what?
First i come to work and there is no one there! (Megan where were you?) Anyway it meant no work for me. Soooo what happens? i meet a man..... haha. It's not what you think. well kind of. I do want to write about it, because i truly think we are never to keep our loving for just one person. It's just i wonder how do you express your feelings that go deeper than one can handle? How do you do it?

So with this man, very casually, i did not look at him, i did tentatively express that i had feelings for him when i first met him this summer. He's got such an incredible twinkle in his eyes and he is such an amazing artist and he always smiles and he is sooo handsome in a delicious way. haha please laugh with me.
Anyway he said something about falling in love so easily, soooo i said, i know what you mean. tada that's all!
we acknowledge that we both felt that way when we first met.
That's all.
I know you might think i am a little crazy. But for me to express something like that and really without any desire to act upon it.... at that moment.
No, no, don't go there, i tell my self. I have enough strong feelings for other people to last me a life time.

Okay that was enough about yesterday, yet there was much more.....

Sunshine

I have a cold. You wonder why.
Yesterday i felt too miserable, today i worked, and tomorrow i work again. So tonight instead of doing anything productive i was browsing. Very much like a moose, but not in the woods on willows, but here on the Internet.
Maybe you know how it is, sometimes you find the most amazing interesting beautiful things. Tonight i was almost going to bed without much luck finding anything.
Till i came to a blog of some fellow Northerners that are friends of a friend of friends i think.
They did not see the sun for months.Welcome back! Sun!
And that inspired me finally!

THE FEBRUARY SUN in capitals yes, because it is the best of the year, right?
It might be the same for most of my readers (except the Australian ones:)
Not every February it shines every day, but this year it is trying hard.

Sitting on the deck, it streams straight in and warms my winter skin.

Thank you Manuela and Elias (and here the snow was dripping of the roof:)
Thank you sun

PS. for Whitehorse residents; remember Bonnie and i modelled for a photo with Norm Hamilton, part of a project on love and be loved, tomorrow is the opening night in the Guild Hall. I'd love to see you there.

Ha!

I caught them
in one picture!
what does it say
when you live among
ravens and coyotes
magpies scrounching
woodpeckers
rattling my brain
they, the woodpeckers
fly around frantically
threesome
blurting out
their mating calls
what does that do to me?
I grab you by the...
run out naked in the snow
only 5C below
that's what it does to me
:)

one eyed coyote

she's back!
my one-eyed-coyote
she was it
that stole the moon last week
she tricks me with her trickery
she's back!
she can take all that i have
make a fool of me
today i am very happy
because she came back to me
it's been at least a year
i forgot if her ear was always chapped
i forgot how long we've known her
recognizing her, looking at her eyes
she is looking very good today
chatting with the magpies
they probably knew
this is not a story with some deeper meaning
it's my old coyote
i thought her dead
she's very much alive indeed
i am overjoyed
my life will never be in order
life will take from me
i'll be a fool again
but here she is
she came back to me

sidewalks

there is a lightness to my step
walking the sidewalks of Whitehorse
the owners of the houses
along the streets
it's up to them
some stretches full of snow
just a small footstep path
some bare concrete
slippery sections
sprinkled sand
ridges of snow
the path is straight
perfect perpendicular angles
there is a lightness to my step
till stepping of that side walk
when your not on main, 2nd or 4th
that's where winterboots come in handy
i am walking up to heaven
i feel the new phonecard
in my deep warm pocket
the possibility
to phone you

snowed in

:) no, i am lying. Here in the Yukon we never get enough snow for that to happen.
But it is snowing, yesterday at one point big flakes, today fluffy flakes with a hard white kernel in it, and most of the time just fine fine snow. I love it.

Hey but what i was going to say, because i don't have too much to say;
Go to Bella! From One Extreme to Another She is a new blogger, but i promise you, you won't be disappointed.

windows

i can look at my life in different ways.
this morning it all seems incredibly terribly unclear
it's because i will have to do my income tax
my whole live seems to be a total disaster on days like this (truly it is)
especially because i did had such a beautiful wholesome loving harmonious etc. day yesterday.
okay i will look up to the mountain and know it can be done
everything
somehow
i won't be on-line
till......