Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Do not ever believe me...
For a few years now, i see in a lot of things the total opposite, which is nothing new. yin yang.
Even when i do not see the opposite, i know it is there, i might not be aware of it.
When i look out at the stars, who are as far removed from me as possibly can be, someone knows i am talking sex, (which honestly i did not do on purpose). Our bodies the closest thing to us.
Stars are good, sex is good and everything in between. Yet i struggle in ways unknown. I am healthy, warm and well fed, i feel tired, often i feel tired, yet i am known to have this boundless energy. I am energy.
Looking out into the world, looking in at my dreams (sleeptime), to me, for now, it is an answer to my troubles.
I dreamed last night i was naked,kind of lonely and at loss in a beautiful surrounding, a creek and big trees. And i saw, and the child playing in the creek, we saw a flying fish. Black with pure white fins. It jumped out of the creek and flew to the ocean in the distance.
Awake i thought it a beautiful thing; how the fish could fly, don't we all want to fly, but the fish was a fish, at ease in the water were it chooses to be.....
Anyway, i have no idea what i am trying to say.
Yesterday i chatted online with a soldier, at one point he said the word, 'war'. That little word it cut me so deep, i wanted to rip it out. We can talk about war, how sad, why, etc. etc. But it is there in all of us.
Ahhhh lets just have sex and forget it about it all. Preferably under the night sky looking at the stars.
I tell you it is cheap, it doesn't cost a thing. And really intrinsically no one not a thing is hurt by it.
Is it all clear now? Morning again, do you see the blue sky through flowers of frost, that grew overnight?
And tomorrow i will write about communication, because somehow that got lost in here.