On longing

Longing.....
I used to long to be in the mountains, i can clearly feel the feeling of euphoria of being in the mountains, being on the top. Arriving at the destination.

I knew my longing was in a sense as materialistic as people longing for a certain pair of shoes, or a car.

I have a lot of longing...

I like to long, i like to lay there dreaming of the day... i meet you....

And as my desire to be on top of mountains, it somehow subsided for another longing.

Longing can hurt....

I love my high heeled black leather boots. I know i had a longing as a child to walk in high heels. I remember the feeling of my arch arching,in my mother's. I was five years old. I forgot about that longing for many years.

I know that as a society, we live in abundance, we somehow know now, that has brought us happiness. I do believe we finally see, that it doesn't matter so much any longer. We had our cake and ate it too. Our longing now for a deeper happiness, longer lasting than that being on top of mountains or high heels give.

I stop here, because this subject is somehow very difficult for me, you have no idea , how much i rewrote and erased again.

Living in the moment...

I was in Nirvana lately... and am totally okay for now, but the longing stronger...