simon vinkenoog

I happen to be reading a book which was written in the last sexual revolution the writer actually makes sure we know it is written from 1963 till 1971. But this post is not about sex, well it always is of course, to me everything we are is related to sex.
quote, In een openbaring leeft hij, die weet dat het leven een aaneenschakeling  van wonderen is. (translated) In a revelation lives he, who knows that life is a sequence of miracles. or, In clarity lives he, who knows that life is a concatenation of miracles.
Upon starting to read the book (het hek van de dam) i already realized, hey here is someone who knows that there is not one truth, but that we each have our own truth.
Now of course life is bound by certain laws, a miracle really, that water is heavier then air, and that we might wake up in a cloud, and know ourselves wonderfully lost, or in a big rain storm and we are washed clean.  One can think of disasters too, but never  will the laws that water lives by be changed. Which is amazing, can you imagine that we suddenly have to adept and become like fish, that will take centuries, many of us will perish.
So miraculously there is these laws that we can depend on.
And then there is creation, i do call it free will,. never do i really now what the next moment will bring.
I live like a land mammal in a world of water.

sexual revolution

:) thank you Sean and others for your nice comments on the last post. Things are still dark, but my heart feels light, full of hope.... for what?

I don't quite know. Different things.

Maybe also for a sexual revolution?

I know i am pre menopausal, and i feel hot sex takes place for hot flashes of menopausal women of earlier days. beside it being menopause related i also think it is a trend.
As i browse the Internet and please do help me finding relevant articles,
I find indeed that since early days there have been sexual revolutions, not only in the sixties.
It names the time of Marquis the Sade, the Victorian era, the 1920s and then the last one the 1960s.

Are we in a new one now!? mmmm  that would be nice.
I found a few articles of 2011 that suggest that,  and last year the popularity of the book 50 shades of grey, says something.

Does it mean  that after a sexual revolution, we grow a little, evolve more in the set direction. That might be true in some ways, but i also think, i would be able to find articles that suggest a sexual repression in between those revolutions.

I think as human being beings we know when we are in a revolution, haha it feels good. But do we see ourselves to be in repression? probably not so clearly. We might think we have reasons or that we feel it very okay... So looking around me in society i do not see that euphoria yet of being in a revolution.  maybe i am still repressed and haven't see it truly happening.

Please count me in!
I vote for freedom! my freedom.

And you?

freedom; for a fish to swim above the ice

for a bird to join the swans

on their journey north

what is charity anyway, when you do not live among

the ones you give to

I am as stuck as them

maybe more

sitting in my castle

the moat so big i cannot swim across

the walls too high 

because i wasn't born an eagle

do you think

i am better of

i long for rivers  full of pain

seeping into every crevice of my heart

it's not freedom, love or harmony

it's to feel a glimpse of freedom, while contained

to be fortunate enough to have known love in a world of hate

it's the harmony of the music i call life

Alexander Chisholme

 Alexander made it into the paper again, as i couldn't find the article  on-line, here it is.
Like always i am very proud of him

And for fun a nice picture of the horses, that are on an open grazing lease at the meadows, it's always a joy when they spot us, coming trotting towards us, hoping we are the ones that bring them hay i suppose. But they are happy to just be petted by us.  With my arms i put some weight on his back, and he was totally okay with that, maybe next time i ride him.

Caribou

Yesterday at the Kusawa road, Don and i saw caribou tracks. 

A few months ago i went into the building at Burns road, whatever it is called now, Wildlife Management, maybe. 

Anyway i asked them about the status of the Ibex Caribou Herd, now i forgot where i put the information that i got.

The Ibex herd is a small herd living on the mountain south west of Kusawa Lake, i recall they said, there are around 750 caribou in that herd now and it is stable.

What i know for sure! is that there are tracks on this side (east side of the lake) and maybe one day we will see more caribou around here. I did see one a few years back. 

AND THE WIND CAME

and blown a hole in the cold

 an old hurt stung

when i realized there never was a cut

all feathers will be gone by morn'

as i fly with the wind

road and water

http://www.whatsupyukon.com/article-view.cfm?ArticleID=1789

my story which goes with this picture is in what's up yukon. , I always try to get the paper when i am in , but i didn't get this issue, i do not know which photos they printed, so here is one.

I did get cold feet that day, more extreme then usual, but that was when i was still smoking, ( i still don't smoke!) ( the easy way Allen Carr).
But as you might know on Christmas eve i did freeze my feet, a little beyond what's being just cold feet.
I think my feet are recovering well, i have been skiing  again, but with the weather much warmer it is hard to say if i will have problems.
I do not buy it anyway. many people here will say, oh now you will always have problems.

:) i am going to beat the odds. and keep on pampering my feet, which are nicely tingling now after a hot footbath. I do not know what the best remedy is.

But i did some googling again  today , and someone said when nerves are regenerating, there are  weird pangs.
A few days ago, it felt like a an insect was crawling around in my sock and biting. I hope it was my nerves recovering, i did not find an insect.
And sometimes i do feel little pangs.
Today , i was on my feet all day, now at night after the hot footbath they are tingling.

and recovery might indeed be long, i do not have much discomfort and there is feeling in my toes ( a lot actually, when Don massages my feet it is quite hilarious, i won't go into details, but i do squeal like a little piggy.

And as long as  i do still have those 'not normal' sensations, i keep treating those tootsies

Sorry if i bore you
soon i hope to be normal again