Friday, June 26, 2009

wild roses



only briefly i go out of the house today
to walk among the roses
its fragrance
sweet and heavy
blown away by wind
i unable
to really catch it
like a sun ray
i cannot fold into my hand

this is my first day in a month
to be truly on my own
nothing needs to be done
so i cry
not so much
for my father who has died
or for my mother on her own
but more for me
for all and everything
that left me
standing

the music loud
till my head bursts open
i dance, i swirl
till i collapse
i scream
i scream
why did you let me go?
i wish i cried
hot tears
strings of my hair
sticking to my face
my hair
your hand
that ruffled it
don't you know?
i cannot live alone

or was it me?
abandoning myself
always wanting to be free
too eager
to live
to love
hmmmm....
all those
roses along my path


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7 comments:

  1. Matt, Kara, Hunter and CavanJune 26, 2009 at 10:27 PM

    Here is a wonderful website just full of recipes for rose petals!

    http://suzette.typepad.com/the_joy_of_soup/2003/05/rose_petal_reci.html

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  2. SueJune 27, 2009 at 5:47 AM

    Beautiful post, Jozien

    I wish i could say things as well as you can...

    I'm at a loss for words, my wishes for you are bigger than just "feel better soon" or "I'm sorry for your loss" or "stop and smell the roses"

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  3. jozienJune 27, 2009 at 7:09 AM

    Thank you both!
    And maybe i"ll just pick rose petals for the rest of my life, mmmm :)

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  4. L.June 27, 2009 at 9:11 AM

    {{{Jozien}}}
    Beautiful words. You are gifted with your words. They reach right into my heart...

    "all those
    roses along my path"

    let the tears come and cry with the rose petals.

    love from Faith :)

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  5. christopherJune 27, 2009 at 10:16 AM

    Sweet one,

    You already know, together or alone, illusions and realities, there is only breathing.

    You were in Holland, now you are in Mendenhall.

    There is only breathing.

    xoxo

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  6. ariaJune 28, 2009 at 1:07 PM

    {{Jozien}}
    let the sun warm you
    let the owl protect you
    let the roses shine on you
    let your tears free
    let love flow
    there is no fear
    love, it's al there is

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  7. AnonymousJune 29, 2009 at 10:25 PM

    "WILD ROSES"
    KLEURRIJK ALS JIJ
    sweet and heavy
    blown away by wind
    ALS JIJ
    to live
    to love
    hmmmm....
    all those
    roses along my path
    ROZEN VOOR JOU
    WILD ROSE IN THE COUNTRY

    ME

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