a glimpse

haha, a glimpse, i wish i could say, it was of that black cougar or that black wolf. No i still didn't see those.
As i live on south facing slope, it's not very often i get to see the mountains to the north, when i am in walking distance of my home. Is north a metaphor for dark, is dark a metaphor for negative? What are my fears? I am always attracted to the north, i am not scared in the dark.
You know all that positive thinking stuff, made me scared of thinking negative. I use it to go to when i have to let go of things. I do go there, because i know to be in touch with my fears, i will overcome them. Why this longing for things to be right, even when we know the sun cannot always shine. Life is this rhythm. We wake, we sleep. Our heartbeat.
I wish i was light, even this, writing this, it scares me. I feel i should.... i should be counting sheep (Christopher i love your light-hearted post)

Alexander

Alexander is back in Medicine Hat, where he lives,
and he is recovering. Thankfully so.
I just don't know what more to write... it's hard to be a long distance mom

Gallery 22

- Second annual Melting Ice; an erotic thawing of the winter blues-

5 o'clock at gallery 22 , behind Hougens

5pm to 8pm February 23 2012

I'll be there, with some of my work

and to the west

Sentinels

(thanks Rob for that word:)

and for all people who feel....

like this

cougar?

I am sitting here waiting
for a phonecall from Calgary. Alexander is in the hospital.
With a bad concussion




so before all that, i did walk up the hill at Stony Creek again.
The light was very flat, the prints already dusted over with snow.
Still i didn't take all the right measurements.
Any way the matches booklet is exactly two inches long, which seems to make the track 5 by 5 inches.
The print seems to have three lobes as Meandering Michael suggested.
The other photo. The animal tracks on the right, mine on the left, my boots are 5 inches wide and 10 inches long.
So it could have been a cougar.
A lynx track is similar, but all i can think, when it was a lynx, it was very big one.

Let me know what you think.

And can you pray for Alexander... thank you

protectors

this one to the east

in every direction i have someone watching over me

quietly, strong, unfaltering

words are only words

whatever i write here

is black and white

engraved

I am gloriously happy

just not quite

Can one life in a state of constant bliss

i remember i remember, for a week i was there once

for years i lived in bliss

now i try to catch moments, that are not totally there

but it's just, i am maybe too aware

that life is what it is

yet my guards watch over me unfailingly

Yes my dear dear friend, who triggered this

i can imagine a life where everything is good

because i have this one and single thing

I as materialistic as anyone can be

when i would lay in the arms of a true love

that truly is my truelove

and i am his

Oh my how blessed are people who have found that

that's just not me

not yet

and maybe never

I smile in every wind direction

i know i live like that

wolf tracks

these are wolf tracks, taken a few weeks ago at an obvious wolf site