keeper of wild places

globe

2012-01-27T11:31:00.000-08:00

I didn't see the Northern Lights, earlier this week, did you?
I did see the moon and... a planet. Was it Venus.
Anyway they were gorgeous last night. I think i love the moon most when it's a thin crescent.

So what is Love anyway, i like to talk about that.
I love my son, i know that.
When he broke his helmet over Christmas, don't ask, you can imagine how. I love him, darkly, worrying, wondering..
When last weekend he gets bronze in an Alberta snowboardercross competition. I love him; dancing, proudly, happy. (do ask :)
I do love him no matter what.

still 40 below

2012-01-20T09:28:00.000-08:00

And i love it, i just love it :)
Maybe you think, how can you love something like that?
But if not extreme weather, i am sure you have your questionable kinks too.
Let me know!

But before i start rambling, i want to say i am sorry to a friend; I am sorry to use you as an example and worse, here, black on white.

And it wasn't only you, in the last two days i came across other people, who mentioned, that bad things are going to happen.

Actually i am flabbergasted, because all those people, i see as beautiful souls, in touch with themselves, kind, loving, whatever good you can imagine. And they are spiritual people.

Now i have also learned with my husband, a 20 year lesson which really i am still working on. That he often expresses the dark side.. While he is happily tinkering with cars, and after will say, who says i am not happy. he will never say he is happy. But one can see he is happy tinkering with cars. But! if you would listen what come out of his mouth, you would have thought hell froze over. ( i added a picture of our beautiful frozen Kusawa lake)

So when people say, it is going to be bad, i should take it with a grain of salt.

Even when there is a certain square in the sky (astrology) even when that causes tension. Couldn't that be brilliant? Couldn't that open up so much? With things changing in the world, couldn't it be that through it all and after the fact, we sit back. And say; My oh my isn't this fantastic, who could have ever imagined that, what unexpected joy. Or like my husband: "who said i didn't like it?"

I more and more believe these are beautiful times, were i realize i am always abundantly looked after. I am Gloriously 'I AM' now and forever.

And to go back to the weather, that doesn't mean that my fingers don't freeze till they hurt, snot isn't running from my nose freezing instantly and my glasses aren't fogged up. What do i know i don't see a thing.

-40 below

2012-01-15T17:00:00.000-08:00

the air is still
the cold prickles on my cheeks
an orange sunset in the south
back inside my fingers red and tingling
the wood is burning hot
music plays
the food smells good!

Most of us know, believe, we live well beyond our means, the earth can not sustain us any longer as it is.
But is that so?
Maybe all we need is trust again?
Trust that we always will be.

I like to say lets be more loving, lets live a little slower, enjoy the more mundane.
But is that so?

I do know that i create the little things, that when i am grateful for what it is, it will sustain. When i give my power to fear or hatred, that is what i meet.
I have lived this way of positivity for years, i know it works yet still i don't get it totally right.

The bigger picture?
Like why i am here?
Who is this woman living warmly in the cold.
How did i end up where i am?
How did you?
yes i know we made our choices
But is that really so?
and i also know that this life is just a dream
A dream so solid i cannot walk away
I am here, i am this
no pinching will bring me to reality

Do you ever have a lucid dream at night? where you know you're dreaming and you can make it everything you like.

Maybe that's how i will live from here,
no more worrying,
just trust,
that we all are exactly were we want to be.

And so the world remains in tact,
it cannot do another thing,

There are just too many beautiful people thinking positive. You and you and them!

and i smile :)

ice

2012-01-11T09:25:00.001-08:00

Celebrating our bodies, (and our society)
I am always struck by the fact that we really can't be. When you think logically, we cannot exist. The infinity of the Universe and all. And to think we are 90% water, water of all things, water freezes, water evaporates, water leaks out etc, water is not very stable or solid. Yet miraculous we are all contained in our skins, and it all function pretty amazingly. And then the fact that we are mere energy, cells that are mainly nothing, just space. (Christopher, i am sure you can explain that one better)

So our society, at least the one i live in, also functions miraculously well when you think of it. I often realize, when it wasn't for rich people i couldn't live the way i live, most material items in my live, were discarded by others, even our house is built with a lot of salvaged material. And the roads are kept in good condition because, well i don't know how it all works, but the little taxes i pay, i know it isn't me paying for it. Health care, how often have i been at emergency for free, with Alexander. (At least he is giving back now, training to become a paramedic)

Still..... you know the spiel...
It seems to lead to our own destruction, but maybe not.

Maybe we should all leave it be, and when our health breaks down, or we loose our job.

Lets celebrate it!

To me, when you have a job, when you are part of society as it is, you ultimately support the very rich. You know the occupy Wall street movement (which i find ironic for reasons, because i with all Canadians am the 1% richest of the world) Anyway they say there is one percent here in Canada that is getting richer and richer.
Well pardon me, we are supporting them....... So be happy when you don't have a job, at least you are not supporting something you resent.
And hey again with health it is a little trickier, i cannot say i won't go to the doctor, when i break a leg.

And recently i did go to the doctor... i 'll tell you later
But as soon as i do, i support the pharmaceutical industry.

My ramblings ramble a lot, but i have been wanting to write about such things for a long time, please bear with me, and don't hesitate to disagree, or preferably add how you see it, hopefully more clearer than i do.

celebrate

2012-01-10T10:54:00.001-08:00

subtitle

the long an lonesome path

sub sub title

do we create our own prison

I know i am very blessed in certain ways, like being healthy.
And i find it hard to relate to people who suffer in that way, in the sense that i have it so good, so anything i say doesn't apply to them, because they are suffering and i am not.
Like what does it mean when i talk about; living simpler, enjoying the moment etc. when you are suffering because you just... suffer of something.

Don't mind me, i get caught in the suffering. And just an hour ago, i felt totally bogged down, blamed it on the situation i am in, my own situation, created by my own self.

Now i do meditate, i practice Reiki, have read a lot of self help books and believe in my higher spirit.
Still i do have bad days, and maybe more than others. so if you have any tips for me let me know :)
But what is it, that i live in abundance with little money, have a healthy body, and am well loved.

Is it just luck? It appears to be a lot of luck.

But maybe i did get something out of those self help books.

I celebrate the good stuff and the bad stuff :)
I try to be aware when good things happen, and let that sink in, truly feel the joy of it. And i use that feeling, that now is a conscience memory, when i worry or when i feel bad. Celebrate i could also call it be deeply gratefull.

Now the bad stuff;
Like it took me half the morning till i realized that something in my life is causing me heartache. Finally i said to myself, i don't like this. that's half the battle, some where over the course of the next hour, i realize that the situation is not to blame, because by being aware sometimes in my life i have realized i can feel bad even when things are good. I flop on the bed, and talk to me self sternly, "jozien, this feeling has nothing to do with circumstances, life is a flow of light and dark, and weren't you thinking about writing how you celebrate the dark. Yes, yes, what do you have to say for yourself now?"

And suddenly it some how clicks in, i lay there loving (celebrating) my misfortunes.

Then i somehow forget about everything, and find my self outside again, i tried before, because the outdoors always works as a great healer for me ( i write about that next :P. But earlier i couldn't really get into it happily, and now it works!

and and and! i am celebrating right now! because right now a small miracle happened!
My husband loves me, he just told me so, he thought i was social networking and he says he loves me spending time on fet (my personal facebook). Because well my distress was partly about, that he resents me being on the computer so much.

Happy blogging to you too
thank you for reading

And i love to know what you think... bad or good :)
And what works for you? i do think we all have our own unique ways of being.

On longing

2012-01-07T09:53:00.000-08:00

Longing.....
I used to long to be in the mountains, i can clearly feel the feeling of euphoria of being in the mountains, being on the top. Arriving at the destination.

I knew my longing was in a sense as materialistic as people longing for a certain pair of shoes, or a car.

I have a lot of longing...

I like to long, i like to lay there dreaming of the day... i meet you....

And as my desire to be on top of mountains, it somehow subsided for another longing.

Longing can hurt....

I love my high heeled black leather boots. I know i had a longing as a child to walk in high heels. I remember the feeling of my arch arching,in my mother's. I was five years old. I forgot about that longing for many years.

I know that as a society, we live in abundance, we somehow know now, that has brought us happiness. I do believe we finally see, that it doesn't matter so much any longer. We had our cake and ate it too. Our longing now for a deeper happiness, longer lasting than that being on top of mountains or high heels give.

I stop here, because this subject is somehow very difficult for me, you have no idea , how much i rewrote and erased again.

Living in the moment...

I was in Nirvana lately... and am totally okay for now, but the longing stronger...

frost flowers

2012-01-03T09:32:00.000-08:00

Do not ever believe me...
For a few years now, i see in a lot of things the total opposite, which is nothing new. yin yang.
Even when i do not see the opposite, i know it is there, i might not be aware of it.
When i look out at the stars, who are as far removed from me as possibly can be, someone knows i am talking sex, (which honestly i did not do on purpose). Our bodies the closest thing to us.
Stars are good, sex is good and everything in between. Yet i struggle in ways unknown. I am healthy, warm and well fed, i feel tired, often i feel tired, yet i am known to have this boundless energy. I am energy.

Looking out into the world, looking in at my dreams (sleeptime), to me, for now, it is an answer to my troubles.
I dreamed last night i was naked,kind of lonely and at loss in a beautiful surrounding, a creek and big trees. And i saw, and the child playing in the creek, we saw a flying fish. Black with pure white fins. It jumped out of the creek and flew to the ocean in the distance.
Awake i thought it a beautiful thing; how the fish could fly, don't we all want to fly, but the fish was a fish, at ease in the water were it chooses to be.....

Anyway, i have no idea what i am trying to say.
Yesterday i chatted online with a soldier, at one point he said the word, 'war'. That little word it cut me so deep, i wanted to rip it out. We can talk about war, how sad, why, etc. etc. But it is there in all of us.

Ahhhh lets just have sex and forget it about it all. Preferably under the night sky looking at the stars.

I tell you it is cheap, it doesn't cost a thing. And really intrinsically no one not a thing is hurt by it.

Is it all clear now? Morning again, do you see the blue sky through flowers of frost, that grew overnight?

And tomorrow i will write about communication, because somehow that got lost in here.

i just wanted to say

2012-01-02T18:37:00.000-08:00

I like to say so much but...

Venus is skipping the horizon
Jupiter dancing around the moon
soft white clouds in a soft black sky

Jupiter

2011-12-31T08:34:00.000-08:00

Just wanting to say i made an error last week.
I am looking up to the heavens again.
For Christmas i got the stargazing calender from Stan Shadick. As i have been out of touch with the stars for a while it needs some practice to get into again, and like HTD says, we move so fast...

Anyway the evening star i look at every night, high in the Southern sky is Jupiter!

Venus,who i will search for tonight, is more to the West.

And as we are talking stars now, every morning when i visit the outhouse, which is open to the sky, right in front of me is Leo, my own constellation.
Now on January 3, according to Stan, there is Meteor shower to the left of Leo. i think. Stan says after midnight, below the handle of the Big Dipper, in Bootes.

The after midnight thing, i think is for Eastern Canadians.....so in the early morning i will just look for Bootes, which i will find by looking at Leo, going up towards the Big Dipper (Ursa Major) and from there following the handle (to the left) towards Bootes. Which i hope to recognize as such. Voila! falling stars called the Quadrantid meteor shower.

in consonance

2011-12-30T16:30:00.000-08:00

'in consonance', or 'consonant' what i am trying to say; today's photo harmoniously goes with want i want to say.
so what i wanted to say or actually ask; have you read the comments underneath my post lately? They say so beautiful what i am trying to say and more. I just love it, thank you.

This morning someone also send me a beautifully video clip about someone looking for what's wrong in the world and they found so much that is right.

I think we are on the right track, things are changing.

We seem to be moving towards valuing more our spiritual side, caring for each other, communicating, joy, beauty, going inwards, etc.

Not becoming a millionaire but feeling like a millionaire. Together, now this moment.

So i climbed under the branches of the tree...... and you joined me :) thanks

do with less

2011-12-28T13:30:00.000-08:00

Again i think that is not necessarily a bad thing. We might find out in delight, what treasure that beholds.

Over Christmas i skyped with my cousin Gerda, and i just got a wonderful email from another cousin. (you find Gerda on my blog list at Le Vertige)

Both were talking about what i am trying to talk about. Gerda mention how it is amazing how little her new life style really costs, how they live on little money very happily.
She and her partner decided to move from their both busy jobs, living in a buy city in Holland to a remote place in French. The choice was actually, to change life were they have more time together. She said all that came from it is what they have now, and they are loving it.
The other cousin is coming to it in a different way. It is just that there is less for her husband and her, and she too seems to be very content with that.

And i.... ahh i, i am so much more complicated than other people appear to be :)
I just live this life of freedom, and it comes cheap.
But often i am stuck in it somehow, knee deep in mud (that is actually tomorrow's story:)

But i do realize, more clearly than i like, that whatever i would change ,if i would run off to NY or LA, i would still be me.

No matter what, where or how, there is me, and that is a glorious thing actually.

Peace on Earth

2011-12-26T19:18:00.000-08:00

My photos don't really correspond with what i write.
I want to write about Peace on Earth and i show the sky, well it is a pink cloud at least.

I do believe in Peace on Earth.
maybe we have come along way in that direction, maybe not.
When i look one way, yes. when i look the other way, no.

This weekend i thought we need a vision, many people say a change is inevitable, things can't go on the way they way they do. Often it sounds like we have to do with less. Which feels like suffering. I do believe that shift doesn't mean we need to suffer. I do believe we will prevail. Of course we all do, i think nobody truly believes the world is going to end, or that our society is going to fall apart.
I always think if anybody believed that, they would now act differently. And nobody i know really does. We all try our best, we always have.

Alexander is studying Applied Health. As a young adult i love it how he sees things so clearly. He does learn in school that it is proven that when people believe that something is good for them, their recovery is faster. I was happy that he learns that in school.

I definitely believe in that, That we all have our own unique way, that if we believe in what we do or are, we will find peace in that. I don't believe there is one truth.

But it is not that simple for me.

Alexander says, mom when i administer a drug, that drug is effective, it is just that when people believe in the fact that you administered the right drug to them, it works better.

hmmmm ahhhh isn't that kind of scary? Have religions and governments not just done that? Make people believe there truth is the truth.
Yet i feel Alexander is right, and i am proud of him

And i hope for a world without drugs, really! eventually

Our bodies the miracle that they are! Everyday our heart keeps beating our blood flowing etc etc.

ps
i stepped outside and i see one star shining brightly, it's Venus!

Back to the light

2011-12-23T10:30:00.000-08:00

I think we are always going towards the light.
It seems we are programmed towards that.
I like to say, we all just want to be happy. There is no doubt in my mind about that. That even when people seem to go about that in harmful ways.

And i try to drop my fear that i somehow am withheld from that birthright, or that i somehow have to suffer to reach that light. Or to think that i am spoiled somehow because i do live so beautifully, and am so well loved.

For all i know, you might think i suffer, because we have so little sunlight in winter in the Yukon, even if i tell you we don't, we have a lot!

It's all a mystery to me....

What makes you happy? Are you generally happy, or do you have happy moments?

What is it that makes you feel happy?

When i just now, step outside and look at the upcoming sun, breaking through golden clouds on the horizon, the blue sky above, promising to be a deeper blue today.
Yes that does make me feel good.

money

2011-12-21T10:51:00.000-08:00

Alexander is home for Christmas!!
Well he came home, he is already off to mnt. Sima to snowboard.

Often when i think, that i have to live less in the money world, i think that i am going to suffer. I hope the opposite is true. Actually i believe the opposite is true. I think we will have more time for Joy. I just did a load of laundry, using the water we showered in, that is always a bit of extra bit of work, but now we have to haul less water, for us having to haul less water, the savings seems obvious. In our society we often don't see the savings, and i keep wanting to draw your attention to the hours work put in by our society to make us being able to just open the tap.

But i wanted to talk about the irony of snowboarding. Snowboarding is an expensive sport, and only because there are some very generous rich people in town, we do have a new skilift on the hill. Thanks thanks thanks!

I sometimes think if i was rich , i could really make a difference.
As these people were able to give money for the lift and for many people to have fun and live a healthy lifestyle. And bless your heart if you are putting on your cross country skies this morning and don't even need a lift.

But i am rich money wise! (compared to most people in the world, not compared to Canadian standards, i wrote about it a few weeks ago.)
And i feel that i did make a difference, together with many of us. we have now an abundance of local produce in the regular supermarket, and more and more things that we can buy organic. That is only possible because many people will spend the little extra, for products they believe in. Obviously we can grow food here in the Yukon and Canada is able to grow an incredible amount of food without the use of pesticides and chemical fertilizer. There are so many things we can do to make a difference.

I forgot what i was going to say next...
tomorrow :)

words

2011-12-19T17:49:00.000-08:00

I feel a little at loss for words, not really knowing what i am trying to say here.
the cold air brushing my skin
not happy not sad

as i don't have a regular job to go to,i am not well read, nor intelligent in the ways of the world.
as inside my house the fire is hot
there is water
there is food

i tell myself, it's okay, just hang in there, it doesn't matter

and so it does, it does matter
even if i do not know if we will be happier like maybe Thoreau was when living in the woods(thanks anonymous)

today someone questioned me why i do not lace my boots...

today someone was not happy with me

today someone told me he has a dream

3 very different people,

3 ways to explain what i feel
so i will start with lacing up my boots.

Staying close to what really matters.
Someone thought, i thought, it will be handy if we can rid of laces, brilliant! but that is where the trouble starts, no matter how handy it is to not have to lace up boots.
I think all these short cuts in life can take us farther away from what we really want, and like to show to you that they do.

I'm the worst for wanting things NOW. So i tell my self to stand still, and wonder what really matters. Because all these fast fixes we live with today, they involve a great many hours of work and take our resource in too great of an impact.
Now zippers of laces it maybe doesn't matter so much (well actually two people commented on it, so it mattered to them) But to flip a switch for heat, instead of cutting our own wood, there is no doubt in my mind! that behind that switch there is a lot more intelligence, labor, rules and regulations, etc. Maybe not directly carried out by you but indirectly, they are. A wood stove so simple (when living in the woods)
And i tell you after contemplating on the porch, getting chilled, wood heat is lovely.
I know not everybody has the possibility of wood heat.

But i want to urge you to look at your actions when you do have a choice....
realizing what really counts...

first things first

2011-12-18T16:48:00.000-08:00

Thank you for the comments i am receiving!
I want to get to; what are the essentials?
But first i want to say again in better wording what i sense is going on.
I think our lives would improve if we stop chasing that dollar. And really there would still be the same amount money. The trick is to distribute it more evenly, but that is the one of the problems now anyway, at that society doesn't have much success in our current system and it is said the gap is widening.

I think our lives would improve, because there will be more leisure time. Now we work work work at senseless jobs (sorry) I babysit kids, because my employer needs time for herself , because she looks after kids for people who work on problems that are created because our roads are to busy, he has to drive these roads to do that job, his wife fixes cars, that he needs to get to all these job, they all have houses, offices shops that need to be cleaned/maintained, because they are to busy etc etc

You get the point right?

I actually think we can still have our flat screen tv, (if you think that truly makes you happy) if we do cut out all jobs that are none essential.

A tv might be essential you know, ( i like to watch a movie :) nevertheless with an old screen tv. which i actually like better.

but what bugs me too, that we have so many fully functioning places to live, Don and i have a shop, an apartment above it, we have tents, we have a camper.
We can only live in one thing at the time.
Today we did express we would like to camp out right were we saw the Bison tracks, under a tarp...
And oh i forgot, we often work from our own home, but also have fully functioning buildings were we can work that stand empty while we sleep.

Of on limb again :)

But after essentials i hope with your help to get to some sort of solution.

freedom

2011-12-17T18:36:00.000-08:00

I do sometimes feel stuck in life, so what is freedom?
Freedom for me maybe; when i realize that this is where, who, etc. i really want to be, this moment.

When skating i felt it.
Just before i was struggling to get my skates on, while Don was long gone walking on the the ice, wondering why the struggle?

When you feel your struggling to make money, but you feel that it pays off.
I am not going to suggest any longer that we as a society could change. Maybe all is perfect ( and i mean that)
And after al i am fully aware that i can live this life of a lush, because for example i wear clothes that somebody bought for me (my clothes are mostly hand me downs) and i realize that i benefit from an infrastructure that is made possible through people that find that important. etc.

Happy to feel the freedom of skating on 70km long skating rink :) how spoiled am i?

I like to become more aware of what it really means that i wanted to skate today. How much struggle am i willing to put in for that (and i don't mean frozen fingers and laces)

I know that now a days we put as a society an incredible amount of working hours in, wasting an incredible amount of our resources, for what? to feel free?

Here in these posts i also want to show you that the scale has tipped in my view, what if we slow down building/maintaining bigger roads, bigger offices, creating more laws, whatever? (i know i am not informed or educated enough to get my point across, but sorry i can't wait for that)
Nowadays as a society we work more hours then ever to give us that feeling of freedom.

hmmm what do you think?

what if

2011-12-16T16:08:00.000-08:00

Michael send me this yesterday

From Buckminster Fuller...

We must do away with the absolutely specious notion that everybody has to earn a living. It is a fact today that one in ten thousand of us can make a technological breakthrough capable of supporting all the rest. The youth of today are absolutely right in recognizing this nonsense of earning a living. We keep inventing jobs because of this false idea that everybody has to be employed at some kind of drudgery because, according to Malthusian-Darwinian theory, he must justify his right to exist. So we have inspectors of inspectors and people making instruments for inspectors to inspect inspectors. The true business of people should be to go back to school and think about whatever it was they were thinking about before somebody came along and told them they had to earn a living.

This was written in 1970
sigh
i think about this a lot
sigh
and will today write some of my head spinnings about it

I would like to go to the bottom of why we work sooo much

i will go to the bottom of my jobs, first one of my jobs for regular income;
i clean someone's house
he can't do it, because he cooks for people who work
who work for the government mainly (this town pretty simple)
the government supposingly works for me (as being a citizen)
well that was short! :)

haha maybe i am an anarchist after all, because now lets get rid of the government, i am really in no need of so many people working for me, who am i being so special?

So now i have fired all the government workers in town, say some 10.000 people, now all that money that is saved, salaries, cost of offices,etc etc
Well the salaries they can keep, people gotta live.
but all the money saved from their expensive offices, they can now just pay me, and i do not have to work, and they can pay my employer, because he now doesn't have to cook lunches for all these government workers, and being home he can keep his own house in order (i actually know he is very good at that, i clean a fairly tidy house)
or is it that these government workers just love to go for lunch, but they still can right, because i had them keep there salary, so my employer still has to cook, that is if he wants...

you know i find it hard to describe my logic, but i just don't get it. It seems to me many of us could live the life we want, because the money going around would be the same...

Really and to be serious, i hope that one day i will look at, what is essential? and go from there.

Because i am sure that we can all live the life we really want, and still be looked after when needed.

I hope some of you understands what i am saying and can add something...

Thanks Michael, i will try to write about this a little every day
as keeper of the wild places in my own heart.

for jb

2011-11-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

found

2011-10-29T11:32:00.000-07:00

The dog found a home.
Thanks to wonderful neighbours.
I made several phone calls to see who was missing a dog. and posted notes. To no avail. So i phoned this one neighbour for help in this situation. And all she did was take the dog, and make the rounds. Less then an hour later she phoned, where ever the dog came from, she found him a home!
I love the community i live in. We might be small in numbers, but everything i need is always here.
And i learned from this, is in a situation, any situation, to take action in the direction of the preferred outcome. Simple as it may sound.

lost dog

2011-10-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

There is a lost dog hanging around my house.

A smallish, youngish, longish hair, shepherd cross,
no collar, quite friendly.

Please come and claim her if she is yours.

intrigued by ice

2011-10-26T12:04:00.000-07:00

what makes me freeze
what makes me flow
bubbles of laughter
that will always stay
it's your reflection upon me
how we mingle
a leaf here
some moss there
i think the world of you

for Logaen

salt flats

2011-10-25T10:50:00.001-07:00

salty water doesn't freeze that easily
tears shed long ago
the pain still lingers
and now the sun is out
i know that i am blessed
that i had something
something special
that i cried about
salty water extra ordinary

occupying ice

2011-10-14T17:40:00.000-07:00

I know there is this movement happening, i really am sorry to say i don't know all the details and what it really stands for, what comes to my mind is that we are the 1% money richest people of the world. I understand the way i live, among the 1% richest of the world, that 1% is also ruled by 1%.
Now really, i actually fit in somewhere around the 13% looking at this link, but i have married a 1% man!
Global Rich List
(that is my husband is in the 1% of the world, not the 1% of the 1%, too bad:)

Now really that i am part of the richest people of the world is what i feel very humble about, and if i was brave enough i would take action for the 99% that has less than i have.

the picture i posted is ice flowing in water through ice

single phase Itron 120/240 volt 200 amp meter

2011-10-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

This is the meter i have now, (i don't know if 'they' refer to this a smart meter.)
Yukon Electric is trying to answer my questions. Thank you!
The man said: they are phasing out the spinning meters, and replacing them with digital ones, he did not know why. (that is just the way it is)
i googling again, am now totally lost
????

Does my new meter saves energy, how much?
Or is it in any logical way better for the environment?
Does a meter has to be replaced every ten years?
This new one, does it emit radiation?

Yukon Energy alert

2011-10-05T07:44:00.000-07:00

I have been phoning Yukon Energy this morning and yesterday. But both people did not know anything about a new meter installed at my place recently.
Well there has and they did drive up in a Yukon Energy truck.

I don't like my new meter. Already as a child and later my child, we liked to watch the little disk spinning, and feel pride for conserving when the disk barely moves.
Now there are numbers...
This week i asked the man who comes read the meter, a minute after he took the reading, if he remembered the numbers he wrote down, he did not. Now as i read on the Internet, this new Itron smart meter is supposed to make us more aware of the power we use. ( by watching the numbers i suppose)
Personally i found watching the spinning disk made it very clear. Now i have to watch numbers.
Also i read on the Internet, that this new meter emits radiation, Very small amounts, but to me nevertheless...
Also i read that the the meter itself is NOT more energy efficient.
Also i read that there is NO data that it actually makes people conserve energy.
Also i read that it is all a very expensive project (to replace all meters)

Ahhh on the good side, on Yukon Energies website, i did find that i can now submit my own readings (which is also possible with the old meter)
The people from Yukon Energy i talked to, didn't know about this either. Yet i am sure i will be successful in entering that program, so the meter guy doesn't have to drive out to my place, which is far out of town, he drives a big truck ( to take a reading? yes)

Yes i realize i chose to live this far out, i chose to hook up to the grid. Yet i hope i can do my best to make as little as possible of an impact on our planet.

And here are some SLOW growing lichen......

Love to hear what you think!

today

2011-10-04T13:17:00.001-07:00

the first day where the thermometer is not going to show above freezing

you know i love this

2011-10-02T09:38:00.001-07:00

But it is always a bit disconcerting.
And we don't want him/her to become a regular visitor.
It has been a few years though, since we had a bear right in the yard.
I assume we have less bears hanging around , because our yard is relatively spacious and not much to hide behind.
Now i did cut up that deer last week and buried some scraps. Yes, that's were it was, it found my buried compost...

autumn

2011-10-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

This autumn started long time ago, it seems to last forever in it's glory, wonderful frosty mornings now, quiet today, yesterday gusts of strong wind, taking the last leaves, and picking up already fallen ones, great yellow swirls.
As my stories still go to 'What's up Yukon' they sadly don't end up here anymore.
Here some photos from a hike in August.

sweet smell

2011-09-12T09:11:00.000-07:00

thanks Cicero :)
The discussion on artsnet, is full on this morning
And i wonder if the deer eat sweet clover, now who would want to up root the deer?
The deer are slowly coming farther North.

this is fireweed seeding

invasion

2011-09-11T22:48:00.001-07:00

What invasion? i don't see anything wrong...

I know this is maybe a charged topic, on artsnet a Yukon yahoo group a discussion started about invasive plant species. One party wanting to pull white clover out, a species that doesn't used to grow here, the other stating, every plant has 300.000 seeds that can live 20 years...
I am kind of on Sylvie's side, the White Clover is here and there is not much we can do about that. To me it reminds me of wanting to keep borders secure, so no 'bad' species of people can get in, or worse...
I like to think, when Alva still had his way, i'ld be Spanish.
The weed we are talking is coincidently related to alfalfa ( which probably is also called invasive' here not being a native species)
I' 'd love to be Spanish, and in a way i of course am, having descendent from the people that occupied southern Holland in the 1500, they were under Spanish rule.
(Alva, i googled it is the Dutch name, of this horrendous man, i think it is Alba in English)
Why do we always fight change?
why do we always wanting to change things?

I am an immigrant, i am not native to this country
White Clover, yes it did not used to grow here

I like to think when things naturally change, that is the way it is....

And really White Clover is here because i am here.... in the sense it is brought up by the way of the highway, built by men, and grows along the highway, not at sweet little Moose skull lake, and when it would? who am i to fight it?

vistas

2011-09-10T12:16:00.001-07:00

Today i am digging up potatoes.
A friend asked me what i did yesterday, 10 years ago.
I don't know if i have told the story here before.
But here for Rob my story.
Don and i were digging up potatoes, it was a glorious day like today. Don likes to have the radio on in the house, so at one point when we come in the house for a break.
There is this news... Indeed. you know the story.
Then there is this local announcement that Whitehorse is being evacuated.
It appears the States has send an Korean air-plane over to Whitehorse to land under their guidance. Because there was no radio contact with this plane....
I phone the school, which Alexander attends, and indeed i better pick him up.
I walk over to the neighbours, who have a child in the school too. My neighbour not listening to the radio, knows nothing. Why didn't the school notify us? I guess here in Whitehorse they assume everybody works for the government (90% do:) and they now all have the day off, and will automatically pick up here kids.
Anyway. Margriet and i drive in (an hour) and sure enough our poor children
would have been.... they are the last two in the school with two remaining staff members (thanks so much to them!) . In the meantime the plane has landed, and there was no foul play, just it happened that that day their radio broke down.
Long story short it caused for quite the excitement, real time, in Whitehorse. And yes as the plane was considerate a treat, and Whitehorse had a big enough landing strip, and if the pilot had bad intentions, not some many people would have died considering how few people live here.

And to connect this with vistas

let me think about that one, what is my comprehended mental view of this event?

cranberry muffins

2011-09-06T21:37:00.000-07:00

growing in the forest

more mushrooms

2011-09-05T18:05:00.001-07:00

abundance of Shaggy-mane, in 10 minutes Don and I picked three baskets full.
The top mushroom in the photo is a little inky, preferably we pick them when the are just popping out of the ground, totally white.
I, now, am washing them slightly under running water, put them in ziploc freezer bags, straight in the freezer.

choice

2011-08-31T19:50:00.000-07:00

Bear's Head Tooth
Hericium coralloides
Today's prize,
i found only one in my whole forest (and picked half)
It is amazing and it was easy to identify
And it did taste delicious.
And for My dear Christopher and others who worry about me eating strange mushrooms. I do have to say i always do so with the book in the hand, when there is any suggestion that it could be mistaken with a very poisonous mushroom, i won't pick it.

The meadow mushroom for example still puzzles me... and if anybody can help me with a positive clue, like smell maybe, i will be grateful. Yesterday i found one such mushroom but it didn't smell like anything, so i didn't think it would be a meadow mushroom.

the color of fireweed

2011-08-29T21:36:00.001-07:00

quite different when high in the mountains,
when autumn is already there
and it is just starting to bloom

Epilobium angustifolium
epilobium meaning flower and pod appearing together
meaning to me, like how i wish to be
she is already ready and done when still fully in bloom

just some autumn photos

2011-08-26T17:04:00.000-07:00

elfin creek

2011-08-26T15:50:00.000-07:00

mushrooms

2011-08-23T16:53:00.000-07:00

i gave updated information in the two mushroom post of yesterday

Alexander

2011-08-22T19:06:00.000-07:00

did get hurt again
and his seat broke
and what can i say
Lake Jumping

clavariadelphus truncatus

2011-08-22T18:26:00.001-07:00

edibility: good

a common name: flat-topped coral
or club-coral

it's a magic world

2011-08-22T18:10:00.001-07:00

we here in the Yukon, are going wild about the mushrooms.
how i wish i was an expert, but there has never been a year like this that i know of.
The forest is truly magic

yum yum, i am eating now these two kinds, one i am almost sure is the Scaly tooth,and the other tasting super sweet......??? if you know let me know.
I know i should be careful eating unknown mushrooms, but this is all too tantalizing for me.

the scaly tooth is indeed Hydnum imbricatum thanks Parzival :)

rain rain rain

2011-08-19T16:27:00.000-07:00

forests full of mushrooms

check this out

2011-08-16T08:08:00.000-07:00

http://treespiritproject.comtreespiritproject

fortunate

2011-08-15T11:09:00.001-07:00

I by no means do not waste I think there is a certain balance, which i have not reached yet.
And i am in the fortunate position, to go out in the woods and harvest, without fearing i am taking too much. Out here it is mainly, the forest, the wild animals etc and me the only human.
This morning in the soft rain, my husband home and warm in bed. I went out for breakfast. First to the raspberry patch and then into the forest for mushrooms.
I picked 'nutty delicious', the brown and orange boletes, corals again, and as it turned out two kind of polypores.
The polypores looked similar in the forest, but when cooked one turns bright yellow the other stayed white, they both tasted good.
The brown one is the bolete.

After sliding back into bed to wake my husband, i prepared breakfast. (he has been away a lot, hence the treatment:)
I had ample of mushrooms and put most of them in a freezer bag to freeze for winter use. (i do like to get away from using plastic bags, any suggestion are welcome. I find drying doesn't always keep the taste.)

abundancing

2011-08-13T19:28:00.001-07:00

hmmmm from an article in National Geographic i understand that we waste up to 50% of our food (Stockholm International Water Institute).

Now isn't it obvious, that if we could eliminate that waste, people in the food industry only had to work 20 hour weeks instead of 40 and that half of the land used for food production could be wilderness. (Here i am not talking about the fact that we could do something about world hunger.)

To me that means though if we want to accomplish that we DO have to pay twice as much for the food we buy, in order to keep the world economy going.

But now, if you are even remotely getting your income from the food sector. Wouldn't you like to work less for the same money?

And really as a lot of wasting is done at our own hands, we have to buy less food.

If you can follow what i am hinting on. (Let me know if it makes sense)

For me the real problem is, how do i pay twice as much for my bananas, knowing that nothing is wasted, and that people picking bananas still have an income?????

I ASK YOU, to look at this with me and really try to find an answer.

This all besides the fact that i still believe we live in a society based on slavery, we the slave drivers, paying the people at the bottom end barely enough to survive. Now how would you like to pick bananas 40 hours a week for minimum wages, knowing that half of those bananas lay rotting on someones counter? :)

Starting here, i hope to activate some sort of discussion were we come to real solutions. In the meantime i try not to waste any food.

foraging mushrooms

2011-08-10T21:00:00.000-07:00

a coral like mushroom, we ate it without ill results

we didn't eat this one.

but i did ate (and with the coral mushroom blanched them and froze them)
a polypores. this kind; big white creamy globes on the forest floor.

It appears to be a good berry and mushroom year!

pinkbike

2011-08-10T09:22:00.000-07:00

Shredding

click on the word shredding above here, and i invite you to watch my son Alexander and his friends in action.

51

2011-08-06T20:00:00.000-07:00

my birthday last week

summer

2011-07-20T19:05:00.000-07:00

here it is very cold, and one wonders if fall has sneakily started, a little too early, mostly the middle of August and then our fall time can be very beautiful, real winter doesn't set in till October.

ahhhhh our seasons very clearly divided.Yet Summer for me is a time, that first you can't believe that it is actually summer all the green and warmth. Today i know again that winter will come again, so now that is in the back of my mind, that winter will be here soon. Hardly ever is summer here totally, where it totally enters your bones.

I long for summer deep in my bones

Yet it is summer very much and i love it, even with the woodstove heating the house.

Selena

2011-07-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

Selena, the first person i met in my life that is actually braver than i am to jump into to frigid Yukon lakes or rivers.
Dezadeash Lake July 13 2011,
Today she jumped into the even colder Kusawa Lake, on a cool cloudy day.
wow!

who is that singing in my garden

2011-07-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

Is it Phoebe?

rosely

2011-07-01T20:56:00.000-07:00

Artemisia furcata

2011-06-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

Artemisia furcata
June 25 2011
Kusawa Ridge

new camera

2011-06-26T13:02:00.001-07:00

Hi!
now after several beautiful trips, with the camera not working i bought a PowerShot Sx130 IS. I think it will do, i am quite pleased with two following photos

First i couldn't find the self timer, and was very upset about that, then i didn't like the macro setting.
But i think it will all be fine :)
So easily upset
Why?
hmmm but then there is my son, who is coming home but now stuck in Grand Prairie where his car broke down. That too will be solved somehow. That creates a deeper kind of concern in me, but nothing much i can do now, so i send him good vibes.

And then that my skype is not working, really, that doesn't bother me at all any more
yet i do have to deal with that some time too, because i like skyping with my family and friends.
And being in this space of what needs to be done, i don't like that
ahhhh there is always too much, somehow.

Now...
i will sit happily with my books, identifying the flowers i encountered yesterday on Kusawa ridge,
all from memory, no photos, not even notes

it was a most beautiful hike btw

have a lovely sunday!

list of flowers i saw today

2011-06-22T20:04:00.000-07:00

My camera is not working

first the smell of wild roses
pink every where - prickly rose
then the bluest cobalt blue - yukon beardtongue
bright yellow - arnica
little saxifragas,(three different kinds)
pussy toes,
tiny white and purple mustards - Arabis
- Northern Jasmin
and probably more
this was on the way along the path towards
The mountain is the garden
flowers everywhere
a sea of cream - Mountain Avens
and when i look closely lilac in every shade - Phlox
blowing in the breeze the large (comparatively) cream/bluish flowers -an anemone, the wind flower
And there from far i see the dark pink from the douglasia
ehhh it is the douglasia not moss campion and it is fragrant
i have put my nose to it and it has the sweetest scent.
agggghr i stop because i lost it again, last month i spend days identifying douglasia
now i do not know......
What i saw was gorgeous a pink cushion sometimes a foot in diameter and it's fragrant
I am lost.....

Okay lets just continue
i saw fragrant fern (yes it smells too, very strong very sweet, lovely)
- for-get-me-nots
- blackish (purple) oxytrope (tiny tiny)
low laying but very dark purple -lupines
small with big flowers -bluebells
and then the deep pink amazingly big and standing up straight - woolly lousewort
and then there was bright yellow big flowered tiny plants - cinquefoils

more will come to me
it was wonderful, it was at Stony Creek

I believe this mountain has flowers that according to the literature do not grow here.

Glorious!

the little bells of various berries -vacciniums, blueberries and cranberries
- labrador tea
and oh my how can i forget the Lapland Rosebay! A wonderful looking out of place, yukon rhododendron bush (small nevertheless, maybe a foot high and not quite a foot high)

And i saw a fireweed blooming! (my first this season)

destiny

2011-06-18T17:09:00.001-07:00

tiny flowers
less then 1cm wide

we are the giants
I met a giant, named Eliah, he is huge and lives on top of thunder mountain. Everyone thought that he killed his folks, but he didn't. The great black grizzly bear did. Yesterday i went to visit him, when i tripped he helped me up. I said to him to come to my house. His hands are huge, my whole face fits in it. He said to me, I will come down if your folks don't know. He came with me and i showed him my home. He went back up to thunder mountain into the sunset. I love Eliah.
story by Destiny

mosquito paradise

2011-06-17T20:33:00.000-07:00

My beloved triglochin

Bog Rosemary

a Fritillary

I walked around moose skull lake today, and it was paradise and the mosquitoes weren't that bad at all.

papilio canadensis

2011-06-15T11:17:00.001-07:00

canadian tiger swallowtail

broken wings
but life goes on :)
it lives only one generation per year.
its caterpillars live here on the abundant poplar trees

wild violets

2011-06-14T08:23:00.001-07:00

This morning upon awaking,
i found this wild violet,
growing in a shaded corner right by the deck.
My Joy is great,
to have a little wild one finding my place worthy to settle
violet love

PS of course my garden, the one, i am honoured to live in. earlier yet a rabbit hopped away as i entered which is of course his/her domain, a piece of wilderness full of wild flowers, but this violet one an exotic one.

Opal's Left Lung - Dumb But Awesome

2011-06-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BLee1L7BxUkOpal's Left Lung - Dumb But Awesome

ha! i might be still thinking too much about that one thing.
Still barely hanging in there, still longing....
I hope that you too can see the humor in this

two tree spirits

2011-06-08T20:26:00.001-07:00

What do you see?
What expression?
They are mirror images of eachother.......

Scaups

2011-06-08T09:04:00.001-07:00

Lots of Scaups (probably the lesser scaup) on my little lake here (moose skull lake)
and in the far right back a Barrow's Goldeneye.
the weather lovely lately. And me?
Same as always; being my lovely fuddly me, more fuddly than ever
Painting a bit, in the garden a bit, walking a bit, tutoring today for two hours, lazing around, reading, on the computer, and working on that slab of wood that you see here a few posts below, it's coming beautifully.

I will one day take the time again to read about your day!

yellow anemone

2011-06-07T20:49:00.001-07:00

just one little flower
close to a little creek
in the dark dense forest
only leaves and lichen
on the forest floor
and horsetail
that will grow anywhere
what do you do there?
yellow anemone....
reminding us of sunshine
where no other flowers grow

scary stuff

2011-06-06T10:25:00.001-07:00

The scary stuff being that i almost had forgotten my password to get in my blog, it took me four tries, i better write it down.
The black bear, always a thrill, but seen from the car it is and looks cute.
The owl scull, hmmm my friend Jane who i was walking with on the shores of Kusawa lake, found it sad; who would do that to a beautiful owl. I do agree, but mostly find it very intriguing.

And
Today i am harvesting!
This for me the best time. All the spring greens, nettle, lamb'squarter, dock, fireweed shoots, plantain, rasberry shoots, knotweed, northern bedstraw shoots.
I blanch and freeze them
And when making a salad i throw in some columbine flowers, for the beauty of it all

And i hope to pick spruce tips today, dry them, for tea.

tantalizingly close to the sea

2011-05-28T20:00:00.001-07:00

glorious days
sunshine all over
in the wind salty spray
but the sea ain't the sea
and big drops falling
from the one cloud in the sky
they somehow don't touch me
i live fully
see bears in the forest
sea lions slip in the water
for breakfast we catch
two dungeoness crabs
even the rocks tell me stories of glory
yet it's more like a dream
not being able to live this most beautiful way

reflection

2011-05-16T15:09:00.000-07:00

a reflection of emotions
so clear
i gasp
and cannot see
my love for you
i find it hard to breath

All back to normal

2011-05-15T12:54:00.001-07:00

summery hot purple
winter in the background
both close to my heart
always

don't you love it!

2011-05-11T19:05:00.000-07:00

It's called...
hiking on a nice day in may
or
enjoying the spring flowers (we did see some!)
or
this is the yukon!

we do love it, soaking wet and freezing

i am trying

2011-05-09T15:59:00.001-07:00

to figure something out :)
The thing is i lost my zoombrowser photoshop and now i have 'photo! editor' (not as good in my opinion. Anyway it's what i got right now. Sometimes my photos would appear laying on their side. Okay when i turn them in the photoshop they are turned!, even when the still show sideways.
I'll never know if computers will ever make sense to me.

i went birding

2011-05-09T15:54:00.000-07:00

Green-winged Teals

i fell through the ice

2011-05-08T17:02:00.000-07:00

fear always intrigues me. I have fears alright, but the wrong kind :) a fear i am working on lately, is that i actually fear to stand on my own two feet.... to truly be independent.
Today:
Interestingly i have no fear of going places that can't support me.
I see my little lake, it's a lovely sunny day, warm. The ice is rotten, i sink in two inches in slush, but the ice hard under feet and still reaches the shoreline.
I step on, it hold me easily, why not go on? I walk so happily when suddenly!
You know it did not feel cold or scary. I just stood there thigh deep (luckily the lake is very shallow) i look around and realize if while trying to climb onto the ice it would break in front of me, it is a very long way to the shore! ahhh i crawl out quite effortlessly. Still.. seeing i am not far from the opposite shore, i think of continuing... It's not fear that has me turn back the way i came from, it's common sense.....

you think i can learn from this in life?

And what is the lesson for today?

for Christopher

2011-05-07T18:26:00.000-07:00

some giants gone

2011-05-07T14:08:00.000-07:00

and i cry
why sometimes what is in our hearts
is miles apart
yes in my heart
i might think it's me and my husband that
are total oppositehere now
he said those trees they need to go
having explained it to me endlessly
i can't see the purpose
not at all
yet i love the light that trees gone do create

i love the light
last week i was surprisingly reminded of that
i was camping out not far from here
but in the dark forest beside a stream
the forest dark and dense
having beauty in it's own
but there is no true love there for me
you know how i love the openness more then anything
i felt this spot was not the Yukon that i love
now i know it's not the Yukon that i love
it is the light the openness
i love my Yukon because
i do live on a sun exposed hill side

aching because of trees, because they live of light too
(aching because i crave a cigarette:)

Rejoicing because of light,
because my son cared for a new born child!
Now how awesome is that!
He gave needles and they complimented him on how painlessly he did it
and the other deep felt experience he had this week;
He cared (with the nurses nevertheless) for this new born child.
What a privilege.
How good can life be!!!
(Alexander is studying to become a Paramedic and doing his first practicum)

:)

2011-05-04T15:34:00.000-07:00

The crocuses are now blooming in abundance
Kips' puddle is overloaded with Northern Pintails
And i will make it through today,
tomorrow and Friday are easy i will be in town.
So i quit smoking once again
and talking about seems to help me
thanks for listening again

snow and sky

2011-05-04T13:12:00.000-07:00

Do you see the tracks on the mountain? these are made by skidoos 'highmarking'
I'll be writing more in a bit
i am quitting smoking again
the first day was easier than last times first day in the same circumstances
today is hard!

caribou

2011-05-01T17:37:00.001-07:00

We saw many beautiful creatures (and a blooming crocus) today around the LaPrairie's Bison Range.

But most amazing to see two caribou!

We know some live in the mountains around here, but none of us have ever seen one, and neither have we heard of anyone running into them.
Well today Virginia and i did. On the bank of the Takhini River.

friends with benefits

2011-05-01T07:01:00.000-07:00

more open water!

2011-04-26T18:52:00.000-07:00

yesterday
we were still skiing
today a little too wet

chasing butterflies

2011-04-24T17:58:00.000-07:00

how glorious can life be

this mourning cloak she landed right in front of me

yes i was a little sad

mourning times of past

my cloak blew off there on the hill

and just before she sat so still

i dreamed that i would get this gift

the fluttering around my head

the singing higher yet

and beyond my normal vision

i am on this glorious mission

(mourning cloak,white-winged crossbill, swans)

Easter gifts

2011-04-23T17:55:00.001-07:00

I saw 6 Mourning Cloaks today!
the first butterfly to be on the wing here.
Last year it was out on april 16, it is a pretty predictable sign of spring.
Over the last 14 years out as early as the 16 of April as late as the 25th.
Because it is fluttering around my yard all day, it is hard to miss. On the hill i found little nests of crocusses buds, they are a little late too

And just some pictures of little gardens in rock.

the snow receding

2011-04-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

exposing all sort of stuffamuskrat push-up from last fall
I always wonder if they survive in this shallow lake

bluebird

2011-04-16T07:01:00.001-07:00

yesterday

i saw a flash

of brilliant blue

i long to dance upon a cloud

decent with swans

in water barely there

its' the mountain bluebird

that tells me spring is surely here

with a brush of southern wings

the summer slowly reappears

spring is here!

2011-04-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh i will just 'twitter' (i don't know nothing about twitter :) spring notes: I HEARD SWANS this morning on my morning ritual to the outhouse, or geese. Agghr i am such a none birder, never quite knowing which sound belongs to which bird, till i see them together (well i will always know the chickadees and actually more) but mostly only when i see the bird, the sound makes perfect sense, like well of course i know that sound belongs to that bird. AND i saw a single swan last Friday on the waters by Carcross. Again there was not a 1005 knowing, as in this case i didn't stop to watch and i did not have binoculars But it is all happening, the yard is snow free, during the day it is above zero everyday All of you , have a glorious day, jozien x

the things i say

2011-04-09T19:09:00.000-07:00

I just said; i will try to do a post, but as i go into my pictures of the last few days, i happened to look at the clock. Where did the day go! it's 7 pm and i didn't even think about supper hmmm it will be salmon (our own last years catch), still patatoes from my garden also last years, and veggies, i 'll have to see... better get to it and :) i did post a photo from around Frazer (BC) where i was yesterday

spring cleaning

2011-04-06T11:16:00.000-07:00

I am sorry

2011-03-12T07:30:00.001-08:00

' i am sorry, mostly to me from me'
writing here i might come upon a better line explaining what i feel
sometimes i think i have got all the answers
other times i get a glimpse of how i am just going around in circles
right now i feel on the downside of things
not deeply
my life rarely comes to a screaming halt
an earthquake here only felt as a slight ramble
and when things are shaken up
they straighten out again quite smoothly
often i feel i am very blessed that way
and it's not that i am hoping for a big earth quack hitting me
and i do feel for all those people, praying for them
But i wish,
i wish
yes what do i wish?
I remember having a party life
long time ago
suddenly i got tired of it all and left that life behind
now for a few years i had my parties on the Internet
yes here blogging and such
and it is fun! well you know that.
and lately i was partying on fetlife
yes i know, the parties kind of wilder
i imagine like on facebook
i never did facebook :)
but right now i feel it is coming to an end
i am sorry to you
that i don't feel like talking to you anymore
and the funny thing is here i sit rambling
rambling as always
thinking i might figure myself out
when i just ramble on
and the river flows.......
what happens when i truly accept who i am?
the river flows
:) nothing really changes

but look at the beauty! of

ice dipping in freezing cold water flowing

and the river flows

2011-03-09T17:07:00.001-08:00

it flows faster than i can keep up
my life has always been that way

how come it always seems

that looking back

i got so much accomplished

where now

always now

i can't get it all done

standing

always on thin ice

ice pebbles

2011-03-07T18:41:00.000-08:00

what is that on the horizon?

is it mist or is it spray?

today i wonder when will unease evaporate

i realized i found my self waiting

i found i wait a lot

do i wait for the sun the wind and water

to turn boulders into sand?

better wait for salt, the ebb and flow, the weather
to create ice pebbles
because you see, it can be done

when whatever i am waiting for
when whatever that it is
before it even happens

my longing it evaporates

and my smile appears

every single time :)

is it silver bay?

2011-03-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

today i went on a long walk
but this was not today

today still cold but bright blue sky
i didn't want to walk today

do you have that some times

where you have to force yourself

for me today

when i started off

i turned around

tried my skis

no i do not want that either

walked again, my feet dragging heavy through fresh snow

and then!

what is that?

a moment of forgetfulness

suddenly not far up the hill

i realize my happiness

my joy for walking

the path it takes me

it takes me where i want to go....

and these photos

that was last week

can you see me sitting

where i want to be

in a dark cave in the rock

goldeneyes feeding at my feet

you know, i am happy being neither here nor there or anywhere

it's very good the way it is

in 55 words

2011-03-04T19:18:00.000-08:00

in limited amount of words

i will surface here today

it is a water animal i am

under water it is calm

my marriage stands

he the brave one

and i, i play

practicing for graceful jumps

jumps of joy and love

sometimes one get hurts

when we wouldn't leap

who would know

we're dolphins

http://g-man-mrknowitall.blogspot.com/

Spring time

2011-03-04T08:36:00.000-08:00

It is still minus 33 here in Mendenhall
but the air smells like spring
and today for the woodpecker started hammering, calling for a mate!

the next announcement i copied and paste

some upcoming Junction Arts & Music (JAM) events happening in March and April:

Brenda Lee Quartet - Saturday, March 5th - 8:00pm - St. Elias Convention Centre - $15 at the door/ $5 for students/ 12 & under are free and must be accompanied by an adult

Printmaking Workshop with Marty Ritchie - Friday & Saturday, March 11th (6:30 to 8:30pm) & 12th (10:00am to 3:00pm) - St. Elias School Artroom - $60 (materials included) - There are still spaces available - Pre-registration and payment guarantees your spot

Family Fest at Kathleen Lake in Kluane National Park & Reserve - Saturday, March 19th - Look for the following activities in the cookshack: Aspen bark painting workshop with Jozien Keijzer starting at 11:00am and music by Silver Ravens (Gary Lachance, Rob Hunter and Andrew Pauls) starting at noon. Lots of other fun winter activities.

Multi-instrumentalist Radim Zenkl and Pianist Bill Schuck - Saturday, March 26th - 8:00pm - St. Christophers Anglican Church - Tickets at the door $15 (Thank you Jazz Yukon!)
Music workshop with Radim before the concert - 3:00 to 5:00pm - Village of HJ Council Chambers - Just $5 - Please pre-register with JAM

Jorge Miguel Flamenco Ensemble - Friday, April 1st - 8:00pm - St. Elias Convention Centre (Thank you Whitehorse Concerts!)

Yukon Writers Festival - Saturday, April 30th - St. Elias Convention Centre (Thank you Yukon Public Libraries and Whitehorse partners!)

Contact JAM at 634-2366 or hjarts@northwestel for more info.

and some snow

2011-03-01T14:21:00.000-08:00

all is well
there's been a lot of water under the (snow)bridge since

the least i can do

2011-03-01T14:11:00.000-08:00

is keep you updated about Alexander
click on:Half second

Alexander

2011-02-23T09:56:00.000-08:00

a photo from the AWG, 2 years ago

an e-mail from Chris

2011-02-23T09:50:00.000-08:00

Friends of Yukon Snowboarding

The Snowboard Halfpipe finals of the Canada Winter Games will be shown on TSN2 (not the main TSN channel, but TSN 2) Thurs March 24 at 10:30 am. Team Yukon is proud of the strong team we have sent to Halifax for the games, and congratulations go out to all the athletes, coaches, parents and volunteers who have worked hard all year to contribute to the team's success.

There is a strong chance some of our riders will make the HP finals, so tune in and cheer them on from afar - or set your PVRs.

Thanks for your support!
Chris

far out and close up

2011-02-13T16:24:00.001-08:00

http://www.michaelsmeanderings.com/ now click on that, michael, he is far out!

Gwich'in Princess

2011-02-09T13:25:00.001-08:00

regally
she calls the birds
who flock down at her feet
i part of her entourage
follow her
the animals;
emily, jack, silaene...
she protects them from danger
leaves notes in the snow
to warn for poisonous leaves
at the y in the path
she stretches her arms
'the spirits tell me where to go'
'this path is warmer'
Bull is one of her best friends
we cross his tracks
she caresses a fallen tree
'oh dear, you are the best in nature'
there's good spirits and bad
she erases a sign
'the one who kills was here'
The Gwich'in Princess she makes sure
he doesn't stay in her domain

sarah

sarah's family

where even dreams are not

2011-02-08T11:58:00.001-08:00

when everything is clear

when clouds break open

and you reach the top

your heart is screaming

and fear is joy

and tears fall upon bare rock

i know to stand there in the cold

with only glory left

it's only down that we can go

let your heart be full

let something linger in your crevices

so we can feel the mountain

even if we're low

and we will know

the sky far greater

than our hopes and broken dreams here down below

for my love...

the summit

2011-02-06T07:03:00.000-08:00

Things that are potentially dangerous and things that scare us.

reading spindrifts http://julianmizuki.blogspot.com/post i realized that we all have are own realtionships surrounding danger....

I went to his post to read about snakes, because my article in 'what's up yukon' was about a snake

http://www.whatsupyukon.com/index.php/component/content/article/226-january-27-2011/2712-intrepid-traveller-snake-for-supper.html

The photo here is the Skagway summit, coming back. Later today i will post photos of blue sky, looking the other way.
When i drove to Skagway there was a more total white out, it wasn't dangerous, because i could still see , on the right, right in front of my car, the plowed ridge on the side of the road.